salam everyone!

my mood is ok today!kalau tgk drpd previous entry, mmg ak sgt tensyen + stress + rse nk balik msia xnak dtg lngsg nz dh..punye tensi smpai ak tgk cite korea yg ber-genre-kan action pon bleh nangis..for the whole 1-hour episode..hahaha..n esoknye ak bleh bernafas spt tiade ape2 berlaku mlm sblmnye..bukan ape..org sunyi spt ak ni yg terpakse habeskan summer kat nz, x penah stay pd tahun2 sblm ni, mmg agak goyah hatinye..pantang org silap ckp sket, yg mmbuatkan ak rse left out..haa..emo x memasal la pastuh...emo bkn dpn2..dpn2 kontrol emotionless abes r..blakang, hanye Tuhan tahu..haha..okeh ayat x bleh blah..=p

tp dh stabil skrg..ak sblm ni mmg mcm hidup in denial sket..x pecaye yg ak btul2 kne stay kat sini bilamane org lain berjimbe2 di msia...ak di sini berjuang menunggu result..(mcm ak sorg amik exam..haha)..bile org semue btul2 dh balik msia, tinggal la bape kerat je kat sini, baru tersedar realiti sebenar..=p

ok je sbnrnye ak kat sini..kdg2 tdo umah q, umah erun..n che ah pon dh offer flat die kalo ak nk serang tgh2 mlm..=p..so i'm doing fine here..step by step..isk bunyi mcm truk gile kne stay summer kat nz..haha..bleh tahan r..truk coz all my very very important person semue x brade dkt dgn ak..sobs..

ok cite psl series yg ak sdg ikut skrg...ak tgk byk gak la crite dlm satu mase..take care of young lady(banned!x best!)..smile, you (kiv..tgk epi 1..just ok)..liar game season 2 (still on going..kiv gak..br tgk 2 epi)..you r beautiful (mmg follow abes r cite ni tp malangnye..tgl 2 episode x kua lg)..IRIS (last2 ak follow cite ni sementare nk tgu episode you r beautiful kua)..n ade lg satu japanese series ak tgk..1 episode pon x habes..

seme ni dalam sehari ok ak tgk before ak buat keputusan nk follow cite mane..

since ak tgh dlm mood "iris" skrg...ak nk wat review sket r..utk sape2 yg tgh pk2 nk tgk korean series yg mane satu, plis consider IRIS..storyline mantap..n org yg ade heart attack xleh tgk..haha..bape kali dh ak rse nervous gile cam ak lak jadi hero tu...ngehngeh2..genre : action..love story sket jek..br tgk smpai epi 9 je pon..x bleh guess lngsg what will happen next..

p/s : thanks utk korg2 yg buat hidup sunyi ak ni lebih meriah...1st time dlm hidup ak, ak rse lonely gile..=p (half-kidding)

moral of the story : if u have a choice, dont stay over summer..balik lah weii..kalu dh tau tiket mahal, kumpul dr awal tahun lagi...air asia ade..baliklah anak2 sekalian..x baik lupe tanah air sndiri..=p

nitey ppl..

can i say that i cant stay here any longer even for 1 more day?

my heart, my brain, everything is going to explode now!

how can i survive for another 32 days?

Biar hidup sendiri dan selesa membina pahala daripada hidup berdua tetapi menjadi pencetus dosa ke neraka. Biar hidup seorang dan berenang menuju TUHAN dengan selesa dan bahagia, daripada hidup berdua dan merasakan diri masih menggoda untuk semua. Biar hidup sendiri dan masih kekal serinya daripada dikelilingi lelaki tetapi telah hilang maruah diri. Biar lambat bertemu jodoh tetapi tinggi peribadi daripada cepat jodohnya tetapi tidak lama ditinggalkan pergi. Biar menjadi rama-rama dengan sayapnya yang terang dan indah daripada sang kelkatu yang menerjah api.

p/s : amik dr Mutiara Kata kat sblh nih.. p/s/s : ngantuk..selamat malam.. p/s/s/s : i like someone..hahaha..tipu je.. p/s/s/s/s : dah2..g tdo yer..

salam..

again..aku mmbiarkan blog ak sunyi sepi tanpe kabar brite..almaklumlah, introvert spt ak jarang klua rumah..blog je la yg jd pengantara walaupun.....xde org bace..hahah..

aritu utk paper last ak, ak smpat study 4 hari je wlaupun ak ade gap 11 hari...sbb 7 hari b4 tu ak berjimbe2 x ingat dunie...oh my berseronok dlm erti kate seorg aku adalah duk lam bilik main game ye...haha..i really live my life to the fullest when i get to do what i love to do at the place that i love to be..the only one social xtvt that i enjoy is actvt yg involve MAKAN2..yer saye suke makan..oh pillow talk saye suke juge..=p..n fireworks!!

okie after abes paper tu..erm x ingat plak but i guess ttbe ak dgn nat plan nk g dunny..hahaha..trus bli ticket wlaupun actly ttbe ari jumaat tu rse mcm mls lak nk pegi...sbb dh bli so pegi la..n alhamdulillah x mnyesal la pegi..tumpang rmh rahmah, hani n aimi..thanks korg!(if korg happen to read my blog, thanks ye)..n of kos pokku yg melayan ak, nat n q..thanks jgk..n x lupe jgk afif..actly i did notice pokku time zaman intec dlu..(i notice almost everyone tp org yg x notice ak..lol)..thanks sgt2..korg mmg best da bomb tertarik menarik gitu!

dan juge kwn ape-yg-saye-fikir-itu-yg-die-fikir-jugak sdh pon berangkat pulang td..so aku tgl sorg kat flat nih!!..dh xde kwn pillow talk..hmm..

td berjaye jgk ak call mak ak yg berada kat Mekah skrg..gune phone card yg khas utk call ke middle east..ak bli kat internet je..mmg gamble habes r..xtau btul ke x website tu..mcm btul..kalo x btul, mmg burn $10 la..tgk2 bleh pon call mak ak..yosh!hepy2..mak ak ckp mcm2 bende jd..biase la tu seme nk bersihkn hati je..Tuhan nk uji..tp aku biase lah..nk nangis kalo dgr family ak jd ape2..bende kecik je pdhal..haha..x tlg settle pon..tlg nangis bleh..haha..typical pompuan btul..matang sket bleh?lol..

haritu x dpt call family ak, kebetulan SEMUE habes battery..lol..ak pnye lah risau nk mati...dh sesak nafas..air mate kua smpai rse mate dh pedih gile..lucky i dont hv boyf..tmbh sorg lg bleh buat ak sesak nafas...xnak aku!...haha..

pnjg la plak kan ak crite..topup 1 week ak x post ape2 entry..

wokie dokie..doa je la kehidupan ak b4 ak blk msia ni ok..bleh grad dgn jayenye..x bosan..bahagie..erm ok..bahagie tu mcm x realistik sgt coz ak mmg x berenti2 ade problem..doa ak bleh handle r..

wokey..till my fingers meet my computer's keyboard again...daaa...=p

sayunye rase bile tgk flatmate ak semue dh start packing brg...rase kehilangan di situ..

dan pule mereke semue dh habes exam!! tapi ak still ade lg 1 paper esok!!!

terase lmbt mase berjln..ak pon x pasti ak dh habes study ke blum...arghh!!

dan juge mak ak bakal berangkat ke Mekah hari jumaat ni..alhamdulillah..akhirnye..

sedikit sedih sbb dh x dpt ckp lame2 kat phone..xpe..ibadat haji lbh penting..

aiyakkk...mlsnye nk study!!tolongg!!!

dlm mase 3 thn ak ade kat sini, 2 thn ak abes exam last skali..

ohmai..stress!!i donno y i shud stress now...

stress + sayu + semuelah..haihh..bleh x ak stress esok2 luse je bkn harini?

wokie, tadaa..

p/s : ak tgh dgr lagu tak tahu antara dua..sbb tu ltk title tu..

everything i do has a reason behind it
it takes a courage to do this

i think this is the best i can do

for both of us to be happy in the future
i dont wish to explain it
it will make our wound deeper
just stop it here

i dont want to keep suffering
for the sake of your happiness
this is too much for me

we have no choice now
either u or me
one has to suffer
i'm not an angel
i'm not going to choose to suffer
i cant stand the pain anymore
i'm sorry u hv to bear the pain now

i'll pray for ur future happiness

salam!

currently, di samping study auditing untuk peperiksaan akhir Auditing hari khamis ni, ak juge tlh buat research yg agak detailed mengenai introversion..being an introvert person, i think ive to make this research..(study yg ade exam maleh..study yg x masuk exam sukerr..committed gile)..

ak penah rse ak ni pelik plus a bit complicated..

1. i dont like gatherings..small group ak suke n boleh lepak lame2..bile dlm satu group yg besar, i feel uncomfortable if ak xde activity nk buat..mcm batch gathering hari tu ok..i had fun coz penuh dgn activity..ak rse ak ade btau dlm entry ak before ni yg xtau knape ak rse mcm nk meletup kpale otak ak kalo after couple of hours ak pegi party/open house, ak still ade kat situ..slalu pk knape ak mcm ni?adekah pnyakit baru ak or ape?kalo ak pegi tmpt2 yg hmpir smue ak x knal lg la...xyah tgu satu jam..setgh jam pon ak x bleh survive..so when i researched about this introversion, ak lbh memahami knape ak mcm tu..mcm dlm entry ak before ni..for introverts, socializing is like draining to them..yes that's true..wokie, dont bring me to events that i dont hv any close friends there..

2. n introverts r slow in responding to questions/ideas..bermakne x bleh spontan la..introverts include me have to think carefully before respond to any ideas..mcm ak...kalo tetibe cikgu suh wat group utk bincang ape2 topik..definitely ak senyap r..

kat atas nih ade video psl bekerje dgn introverts..x bermakne kalo ak senyap when in groups, ak uninterested n unknowledgeable about that topic..i just hv to think in a longer period than extroverts..i'm thinking ok..that's y i think study group is useless for me..coz i'm blank when u ask questions for me to answer immediately..

3. yes, although i hate gatherings, i did go to a number of social events..dont ever ask "y r u so quiet?"..i just do n i dont hv the reason for that..i choose not to talk..full stop..dont ask..i will talk if i hv something to say..bknnye x penah tgk ak berckp..n penah jgk org assume ak stress..wuahahaha..ok as for u to know ur assumption yg buat ak rse stress..their assumption is because i dont smile..ok see this video..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSUO88HSgaw&feature=related..ak penah btau dlu, i dont smile if i hv no reason to smile..bkn sbb ak stress...alahaii..naseb xde award paling x suke senyum..hahaha..introverts just dont smile..period.

4. introverts just love to be alone..bcoz while being alone, introverts get their energy..x pyh la tnye knape ak kdg2 tolak ur invitation..i just dont feel like going out..drpd korg tgk muke ak kne pakse klua..baiklah kirenye ak tolak..n x pyh la ckp ak suke sgt bilik ak..ak suke keadaan yg tenang...x kire la dkat taman ke dkat restoren ke..not that i love my room..ak cume suke keadaan yg peaceful, quiet..tp x bermakne ak x klua lngsg..wokie..

research psl introvert ni juge menunjukkn bhw extroverts sgt susah untuk memahami introverts..utk org2 yg extroverts, introverts just dont make any sense...mereke pelik knape ade org x suke klua..x suke gathering...cube phm..psl introversion ni, ak sndiri pon still dlm process utk phm diri sndiri..if i hv choice, i dont wish to be introvert sbb extroverts r more socially acceptable..but i am one..

p/s : yay! tgl satu lg paper=)

what extroverts might want to know about their introverted friends.

It's all about energy: What appears to be the bottom-line difference between introverts and extroverts is that social interactions are energizing to extroverts but draining for introverts. This is why I might come to your party but leave long before the conga line starts. And why a stretch of interaction then requires a few days of solitude to recover. If you understand this, you will have grasped a key quality of your introverted friends and their perhaps puzzling behavior (why didn't she come to the after-hours party?) will make more sense.

I don't need to come out of my shell: A huge misconception about introverts is that we're all shy. Nope, not the same thing. One can be introverted and shy, or introverted and not shy. (Same with extroversion.) I'm not shy. When I'm in the mood to socialize, I'm perfectly friendly and outgoing. When I'm reluctant to socialize, it's choice, not fear. So if I decline an invitation, please don't push or insist it will be good for me. I have my reasons and they're valid. (At the same time, I promise not to say "no thanks" too often.)

p/s : yes, saye x pemalu la! it just depend my mood whether i want to socialize or not..

The more is not the merrier: Not for me, anyway. If we make plans, please, please don't invite other people to join us-at the very least, check with me first. Introverts usually prefer one-on-one to groups and I'm bummed when the nice cozy visit I anticipated turns into a convivial racket. I'm sure your friends are wonderful people, just don't spring them on me and please don't be offended if I decline invitations to group outings. (Although I do believe that friends attend friends' parties. It's the right thing to do and if you throw one, I will come.)

Anything but the telephone: I have one friend who likes to call "just to hear my voice." Very sweet of her but I wish she would invite me to lunch instead. (Yes, of course I invite her; I usually initiate our get-togethers.) Like many introverts, I loathe the telephone. For one thing, we tend to think and respond slowly, and dead air on the telephone doesn't work. I'm awkward on the phone, especially when just-to-chat calls drop on me from out of the blue. And I feel bad that the other person can always sense my yearning to break free. But really, it's not you, it's the phone. Don't take it personally. (I do talk on the phone, sometimes for hours, with far-flung friends. However, I like to either schedule those calls or initiate them so I don't feel ambushed. I often screen my calls and return them when I feel up to it.)

p/s : aku sgt x suke org call tp x penah tahu bhw introvert lain juge begitu..oh..

Yes, I like online communication: Don't give me grief: The Internet is a godsend for introverts. Not as a replacement for face-to-face, no no!, but to stay connected between visits and take care of business (making plans, for example) without obligatory and tedious phone chitchat. Want to make me happy? Set up a get-together via e-mail. (I don't text or IM much, but many introverts like those, too.) I'm also a fan of social networking-a Facebook extrovert. I'm not a loner in my parents' basement with lots of virtual friends and no "real" ones. My Facebook friends are mostly real-life friends, many of whom are far away. I love being able to kibitz with them anytime online. (Of course, as a writer, I also spend a lot of time in front of a computer.) If you're not a fan of Facebook, that's fine. Just don't hassle me about it, OK?

p/s : yes , i used to be a facebook extrovert..

sumber : www.thefriendshipblog.com

smbung entry bergmbr smlm...layannzz..

*tenkiu tenkiu for d lovely card*

*ni la gmbr paper bag yg kiut miut tu..elegant gitu..*



~THE END~

salam semue!

lebih dh 1 week ak x update..sedikit pelik for a person with pnyakit update-blog-setiap-hari-wlaupun-xde-bende-penting-nk-tulis...=p

byk bende actly nk crite for d past 2 weeks..ak x crite lg psl petsoc dinner kan?tu yg dh berzaman pnye event..seriously no mood la nk tulis..bile xde ape2 crite, rajin plak update blog..kalo byk crite, xde mood plak..haihh..konflik2..

ok start with petsoc dinner lah..petsoc dinner kat lonestar bush inn..activitynye, ktorg kne describe psl org lain..syafiq kne describe psl ak..i never know he knew that much about me.."kalo yat marah, ak cuak gak r"..haha..tu ayat die yg ak suke..lol..sbb org x penah nmpk ak mrh..n aku kne describe psl raden...ak xdek r tau sgt pon..with my expressionless "face", ak ckp bende yg ak tau jek r.."pelik"..tu point yg ak pasti..n ak dpt anugerah "miss blurr"...ak lbh suke term "emotionless"..haha..ok enuff said about petsoc dinner..*yg ak dpt time petsoc dinner*

then..1st paper dh cite kot kan...2nd paper, erm..pasrah...ak abes 2nd paper 31 oct..n my next paper is on 12nov..lalalala..x start study ape2 pon lg..for these past few days, ak aktif bermain2 di OMGPOP..*ni la OMGPOP*

smpai ym pon kdg2 x bkk (coz ym stuck setrusnye bleh mmbuatkn perjalanan game pon x lancar)..fb pon bkk kdg2..(coz fb dh xde highlight..ak x phm dh cane nk gne..lol)..blog pon x update (xkan nk cite psl game je kot..haha..)..

so actvt ak 1nov smpai 4 nov..main game kat omgpop, tgk boys over flower (yi jung n ga eul forever!)..n webcam dgn family ak..n bosan2 kua mkn kat lua..msk pon x..hahaha..pnye la carefree gile hidup..

n smlm busy sket..kul 2 dh kua tgk atoy kat spital (omg spital mcm 5-star hotel!)..n balik kejap..kul 6.30 g new brighton..dgn nat, dyla, fifi, amir, hanaa, anne, ammar, sobri, topek n kak ummu..tgk fireworks!!xtvt tahunan tu!how much i love fireworks?ak sanggup pegi tgk fireworks mase 2007 wlupon esoknye ak ade exam law (killer subjek oke!)..wlaupun mlm tu x tdo mlm nk habeskan study..ahhh..hebatnye fireworks tuuu!ak xkan dpt tgk kat msia fireworks segempak itu..bkn sbb xde tp kat kerteh xde kot..ak mmg x pegi sgt area2 kl yg biase ade mende2 fireworks ni..so this is my last time watching fireworks here..sobs..

*hihi..x clear sgt..x reti amik gmbr fireworks*

*thanks nat! hee=)..lupe nk amik gmbr paper bag yg cute miut tu..nex entry k*

p/s : udah2 r bermain2 segale...mari lah start study..perjuangan blum lg selesai..paper 12nov tu killer subject ak..huu..utk beberape ari ni ak mcm berade di dunie yg lain di mane ak rse ak bkn seorg student lagik...isk isk..kalo ye pon, bape hari je lagi ak kne study ni..wokie..study!!tgl 6 hari!!countdown!

salam u olz!

there's nothing much to write actly..bru habes 1st paper..huhuhu..nk kate disaster sgt tu x la...tapi tapi...bleh kire camtu ar...prasaan ak lps exam kali ni, x mcm biase..slalu nye lps habes exam, ak pasrah je...bende dh lps...but this time..xtau la tapi tersgt cuak!x kire mcmane skali pon i have to pass ALL paper!!ya Allah, beratnye rase...x pernah ak rase beban berat mcmni..tolonglah doakan ak bleh grad plis!i'm so super duper cuak gile nk mati ni..takotttttnyerr..

ok ok walau mcmane skalipon hidup mesti dtruskan..mase bergerak..dan exam pon x habes lg...nk heartbroken for a paper sgt2 pon, xkan xnak study utk paper lain..

wokey, tolong doakan saye okies..saye doakan kejayaan anda juge=)

p/s : sgt cuak mcm nk tunggu jwpn slps confess je...
p/s/s : ak x penah confess la tp..=p